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I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of “I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won’t do anything all day!”
But no one seems to make the connection that it’s a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.
Can I go to the store? It’s 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON’T KNOW!
I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I’m aware that I don’t know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I’ve been like “hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that’ll take like 15 minutes!” and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.
Plus there’s also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.
Like, let’s say you decide to play a video game. You’ve got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it’s 2:49 and you haven’t showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you’re asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)
And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it’s great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You’ve got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you’re getting stuff done you’ve been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.
You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don’t have the drive to write them down. You can’t force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You’ve left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.
So next time you don’t even start. There’s not time. You’ve been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?
My point is that people seem to be going “lol I can’t do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm” like this is a quirky “oh I’m so scatterbrained!” weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.
(and that’s not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you’re going to avoid them. Even when it’s things like “going to that party” or “meeting your friends for a drink/game” or “going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class”. Things you should enjoy. Things that’d help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)
(via bonapaga)
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Guys make sure to keep it down, I told them they could sleep on my dash.
Shhhhh
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so i spent far too long on this.
for those unaware, the spaghetti wall of letters and numbers is a base64-encoded JPEG image (and not a URL as some guessed). in certain cases when you tried to insert/paste an image into what’s ostensibly a text-only box, this could happen.
the thing that’s bugging me however is that there’s image data there. we have fairly a clear (albeit with JPEG artifacts) screenshot of text that, thanks to how Windows ClearType renders text, each character is identical to each other, that is to say, an uppercase Q will always look more or less pixel-perfect each time, meaning we don’t have to guess what a Q looks like, we simply have to pixel-accurate match it.
as an aside, this is why regular OCR struggles so much with this kind of data retrieval, such as code even when it’s clearer than a physical paper scan. ordinarily, OCR will try to best-guess every single letter because it expects each letter to be slightly different from each other (as would be the unpredictable nature in a scanned document), and on top of that most OCR today will try to autocorrect because it expects the scanned text to contain words in some human written language.
so, all we have to do is make a program to recognize each character and piece back together the whole base64 string, right? well…
first i stitched all 7 images back into a single block of text, observing the consistency of the line spacing. some of the screenshots have little bits of the previous one sticking out of it, which helps with alignment and to make sure they’re in the right order.
after that i had to sample every single letter off this file. this means going around the file and finding one example of each different character we’re trying to identify, saving it as its own separate file so that the program can load them as references to compare against in the full image. for base64, the alphabet consists of a-z, A-Z, 0-9, +, / and =. once i had the initial code in place…
…close! but oh so far. if any one single character in a base64 string is wrong or missing, the resulting decode will be wrong. the issues i was having were mostly with the lowercase r and j because of how the kerning affected the pixels around those letters. i was also getting false matches for r where there should be an m. what followed was grueling hours of tweaking the matching code and my known font set to better fit the original image and get as close as possible to a 100% match. here is the resulting code, maybe it’ll be useful for someone and this won’t have been a complete waste of time.
once i was confident through the verification image that i had all characters recognized, i put it through a base64 to JPEG decoder. i actually did this several times as i improved the recognition and what follows is the best result that came out of it yet. i suspect some of the data might be missing (perhaps a line or block of text got lost in between screenshots), or i have a wrong character somewhere resulting in a wrong value. this is the image extracted from OP’s base64 string:
we can finally know what they meant when they said “me in a relationship” and i can finally go the fuck to sleep.
update: i found that the string that i used to decode the image in the previous reblog actually had one letter wrong.
with this it still doesn’t parse as fully valid base64 in strict mode so i think there’s still another letter in there that’s wrong, but i couldn’t find it. however this gives us a better look:
and this is finally enough to do a reverse image search. i present to you, the HD version of our intrepid massive backpacker:
still have no idea what they mean by “me in a relationship” with that, though.
(via egberts)
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The other day I told a friend of mine that I never forget to take my ADHD meds because I fucking love my ADHD meds. I’m in my late 30s, I didn’t finally get a diagnosis and meds until less than two years ago, and they have changed my entire life.
And he raised his eyebrow at me. We’d been discussing addictive medications a few minutes before, like the Tramadol I finally got from the pain specialist to take once a week or so to give me a break from my chronic pain, so I reassured him that methylpenidate (Ritalin/Concerta) is not addictive (at least not in people with ADHD).
His response? To raise his eyebrow even harder and say “Well it sure SOUNDS like it’s addictive!”
And I had to explain to this man - who works in a healthcare related job by the way - that just because medication makes you feel good and helps you, just because you look forward to taking it, that doesn’t make it addictive or dangerous. And he wasn’t convinced.
The simple fact that I was excited to take a daily pill that has literally changed my life, after decades of fighting to get that medication, made him think I shouldn’t be taking it so often. That it must inherently be dangerous.
I’m not even in America, but I’m pretty sure this attitude began there and then spread over here to Europe. This Puritan idea of “if something feels good, you must beware of it. Pleasure is dangerous, it is sinful, it is addiction, it is evil.”
I know too many people who subconsciously believe that pleasure = addictive = dangerous = bad. Joy is a slippery slope to hell.
So here is your reminder for today that you don’t need to be afraid of feeling good. If something improves your life, use it. Even if it is addictive - learn what that addiction means, whether the addiction is inherently dangerous or not, and whether the benefits outweigh the drawbacks and risks.
My ADHD meds are, in fact, not addictive. But I will take them every day because they make my life orders of magnitude easier. I will enjoy them every time I take them.
My tramadol is addictive. I will still take it. I will keep it on a schedule to avoid becoming addicted, primarily because addiction in this case would mean reduced effectiveness. But I am not afraid of my painkillers. They are life changing.
Take your meds, everyone. Don’t let anyone scare you away from doing something that improves your life.
There is something so sinister about the idea that a medication made to improve your life cannot be trusted if it improves your life so much that you like taking it. Bleh.
It puts this weird moral obligation on suffering. Like if you’re actually comfortable with yourself and your treatment you’re somehow failing. That you need to be ashamed somehow that the medication helps you and need to be looking for alternatives.
But you don’t. You found a solution that worked great and then you moved on to something else.
(via lilaccat25)
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i think we should bring this back (with some amendments ofc) if we ever needed an “internet etiquette” for the younger generations, now is the moment to remind them. purity culture kills fandom
as well as the three laws of fandom:
Don’t Like, Don’t Read (DL;DR), Your Kink is not My Kink And That’s OK (YKINMKATO) and Ship and Let Ship
This thing about normalizing is so funny. People who might commit crimes IRL don’t need an extra push to do terrible shit to real people. School shooters can play fucking Potion Craft and cute farm games and still commit a crime the next day. It’s not fiction violence what push people, it’s always real life problems, mental or such, but it’s always about IRL shit. Fiction is a place where people are trying to distract themselves, let emotions go for a while, relax. I didn’t see a raise in incest statistic after Game Of Thrones became popular. Incest in GOT was shown so romantic. Do you feel any kind of attraction towards your siblings? I guess you don’t. I lost count of how many fucked up shit I saw on internet, how many fucked up fics I read. I still stand against all of what I consider bad IRL, but I can read about it in fics. So what? Does it make me a bad person if I read what can make me cry or sad? Also don’t forget that people write dark themes fics because of their trauma, it’s like a convenient way to get over your pain and fear, it doesn’t hurt anyone until it stays on paper.
Do you really think that if people read non-con or such and they think “hmm let’s try it”. People with a moral compass won’t bring fictional things into reality, because they know what’s good and what’s not. They have critical thinking. On the other hand they’re people who might and will commit crimes, but it’s never about a few dark fics they read on internet. Antisocial behavior is always about how that person lived, about their health and such. Did they felt safe and ok in their childhood or any period of their lives. It’s always about trauma or the way their brain is functioning. Words or drawing on internet doesn’t contain the power to make people transform into monsters.
If those “internet heroes” actually looked outside their windows and acknowledged REAL TRIGGERS of antisocial behavior they would be very scared. They should be. Not because I wish them to be scared, but because it’s necessary to know how things really works. How the world works. In general. Go touch some trass, dudes, you need it
(via lilaccat25)
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Reblog to have the most homoerotic year of your life 2024
(via celestial-tadpole)
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So within two days of each other, Fox News writes an article comparing aromanticism and asexuality to pedophilia, and then Matt Walsh releases a video saying asexuality is a mental illness and asexuals are tricking teenagers into having depression.
Not sure what’s going on right now over in Conservative World, but it’s a hell of wild U-turn for them to suddenly switch from “Oh no! The left is sexualizing our children!” to “Oh no! The left is asexualizing our children!”
It’s a reminder, I guess, that they’re coming for all of us. The fash and the white supremacists will not make nice distinctions between the queers when they put us up against the wall. There is no gatekeeping, no label-policing, no purity-purging and no assimilation that any of us can do that will save us. They want us dead, and while they’ll start with whoever is most vulnerable at any given time, they’ll get around to all of us eventually.
Queer solidarity means all of us because the fash are coming for all of us.
All Dividers are Feds. Stand united or die separately.
ANYONE who is trying to divide our community is a fucking Fed. That includes other queers who like to argue about who is and isn’t “allowed” in our community.
(via piefinn4)
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Lot of people are tucking themself into a ball and rolling away nowadays very cliche in fact
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iput-witch-inmyurltofeelvalid:
Love that his reaction to being pranked was to pull the exact same prank on his buddy
It’s a good prank when the person you pranked immediately wants in on it, and it doesn’t cause any harm.
(via sanguine-thoughts)
